:: as close as we could get : japantown, san francisco july 2010 ::
dear camille & j ,
they say "close your eyes and you will see". because of so many bruises in my own life, i sometimes let myself fall thinking i might be able to begin to feel your pain with the tip of my heart. but of course i can't, because i can still hold my daughter in my arms. yet, as i head back from the trip, sick to my stomach, i comprehend there was a before, an after which has been survival only, and there is now. now when time is a friend that helps you wake up every day and a worst enemy that can fade everything : the smell, the sound, the sight, even the feeling.
but love never fades. when i think about you, i think about nathan, and when i think about nathan i think about you. this is all about the invisible & everlasting little cord between the three of you that will always make nathan shine through you.
if i had a portrait of you & j. that's the one photo i would choose here.
you & nathan have touched my life forever and i will never forget.
with all my love,
valerie
